Blue Blue Monday

So I haven't really found myself suffering from Blue Monday Fever for a while now, I thought that was because with no job and no life the days sort of blended together and Monday simply meant the start of another week of nothingness.

Well today I found myself waking up on completely the wrong side of the bed and even after going back to sleep and trying again on the other side, (I have no job so I can do that) I felt no better.

Now I guess I do know the bottom reason of my bad feelings, I have a very amazing friend in a very serious condition and I find that that is all I can think about. She is in my every thought and every prayer and nothing I do can shake my feeling of sadness.

But then I read Crazii's post for the day and see that she too is feeling that sense of Monday doom and then I think well maybe friends are connected and we could be feeding of each others negative energies? Is that possible across continents? I mean I've heard of girls that live together or work together (ie spend too much time together) will eventually come on the same menstrual cycle - maybe that's God's way of keeping the cat fights within one week a month.

So for now I will resort to actually doing some work to earn minimal monies, or rather indulge in some online shopping to try keep my mind on the moment and try rid myself of the not so nice thoughts. On the other hand, maybe I'll just go back to bed and try again...

Feeling Far away

Everyone always asks how I’m coping with being away from home and my answer is always “fine so far”. Well today I realized the worst part of being away from home, that’s when bad things happen to people that you love.

2009 seemed like a year when so much bad was going on in terms of friends being hurt by horrible boys and it sucked when I couldn’t be there to support them in terms of chocolate and movie nights, but it’s a different story when a friend is physically hurt and there is nothing you can do.

To find out on Facebook that an amazing person is in a bad condition really sucks and it’s even worse when you are too far away to do anything about it. This is when the distance really gets to you because you can’t just jump in the car and race to the hospital to be by their side and updates on their condition take a while to get to you.

So if anyone had to ask me now what’s the worst thing about being away from home I would say, “Not being able to be there for the people you love when they need you.”

For now all I can say is Sushi please get better soon, I love you and I’m thinking of you every second.

And for the rest of you , please stay safe and happy.